I have a pattern in my life that I can't seem to shake. Every Sunday I wake up, and I absolutely dread going to church. I fight it and make up excuses as to why I can't go. And then I go to church, love it, and promise that next week, I'll be so excited to go! But sure enough, the next week comes and I don't want to go.
The same things happens with seeing my counselor, with going to yoga, and hanging out with friends. These are all things I truly grow from and enjoy. So why, when the time comes, do I dread going?
I'm not sure why, but what I DO know is this: when I do go, I grow as a person. Even if I don't learn anything at church or am mentally distracted in yoga, I grow because I am slowly teaching myself self-discipline... doing things I know are good for my soul even though I don't feel like doing it.
One of the excuses I always tell myself is that I don't want to do something if I'm not being genuine about it. My mentality is this: why should I go to church if I'm only going because I feel like I HAVE to? That's not very genuine. But I've learned that I grow if I do it anyways.
"Some days, there won't be a song in your heart. Sing anyway." -Emory Austin